Chapter 3

　　~Sebastian~

　　My hands trembled as I cupped her face, my heart pounded wildly against my ribcage. I couldn't recall when was the last time my heart pounded this hard. I couldn't help but feel scared as I waited for her response.

　　Her silence was killing me.

　　"Hazel, please say something. "My voice was almost a whisper and shaky. She closed her eyes and heaved a deep sigh.

　　"I don't want to fight a losing battle, Sebastian. "She said and shook her head, then her lips curved into a bitter smile.

　　'She's giving up on us. Our sweet Hazel is giving up on us. 'Knight howled inside my head, the pain was too much to bear. It felt like my heart was being pierced by a silver dagger.

　　"Are you giving up on us. "I asked her and I was met with another heart-wrenching silence.

　　"I have no choice, Sebastian. I'm on the loosing end.  I'm bound to lose. "Her voice a whisper. I looked deep into her brown hazel eyes that I loved so much as though searching for some answers, but all I could see was sadness and unspoken fear.

　　I didn't know what to do anymore. I didn't know how to convince her anymore.

　　"Please excuse me. "My sweet Hazel said and walked away from me. This time I didn't hold her back. I let her go. She was hurt and I was the one to be blamed for everything.

　　I watched as she sauntered to the closet and picked up her nightgown then slid into it. I lusted over her sexy body. However, I didn't dare to touch her or do anything because I didn't have the courage to.

　　She walked to the bed and crawled under the white sheets and turned her back on me. It was evident that she didn't want to see me. I stood in the same spot, lost and helpless.

　　Heaving a deep sigh, I walked to the bathroom to freshen up. I wanted to get rid of my fated scent because it made me sick. It reminded me of my weaknesses.

　　I turned the shower on absent-mindedly and walked under the warm running water with my clothes on. I closed my eyes and all the memories that I shared with Hazel began to haunt me.

　　"I don't know what to do, knight. I have tried my best to bring her back to me but...I have failed. I don't know what to do anymore. "I confessed to my wolf and he was silent.

　　For the first time in my whole life, I was helpless. I didn't know how to deal with this situation.

　　I wished Hazel and I would go back to our normal life. To live our lives like before. I wanted us to laugh, tease each other and do everything together like we always did before fate fucked up our lives.

　　We have spent more than a decade building our relationship. Learning to understand each other. Studying each other's likes and dislikes...

　　I still can't believe that it only took a few seconds to ruin our perfect relationship. Our perfect life and our perfect marriage.

　　Everything we worked so hard to build crumbled into dust. The trust was destroyed.

　　Hazel is a good soul. She's the best woman anyone could ever wish for. We grew up together and I knew her too well. Her father was a beta and my father was the Alpha of the mountain pack.

　　I used to have a crush on her since the age of ten. However, I never confessed to her until she reached the age of sixteen and I began to court her and got married when she was eighteen and I was twenty years old.

　　Since finding your fated was rare in our world, we decided to make our destiny and promised to love and cherish each other for the rest of our lives.

　　Hazel was a tough girl. She trained daily to become strong so that she could be the strongest Luna and balance the power. She sacrificed her medical career to take the Luna duties.

　　She did everything for me, for our pack and that's why we're the strongest pack in the east. But what did I do? I broke all the promises that I had made to her.

　　I closed my eyes and tears flowed because I couldn't hold it anymore. The water washed away tears as soon as it came out of my eyes.

　　I punched the concrete wall countless times, hoping that doing so would ease the pain that I was feeling deep down and make me feel less guilty. The pain of losing someone so dear to me was unbearable.

　　Even though we're living under the same roof and we're still married. I know I'm losing her, she's slipping away from my grip slowly.

　　Hazel is not only my mate, she's my best friend and my strength. She helped me build the pack and conquer the neighboring packs to acquire more land when I lost my father.

　　"Please hazel..."I tried to reach her through the mind link but she had shut me down. Which was not normal for her. It only meant one thing. That she had given up on me, on us.

　　Although we disagreed sometimeswe always found a way  back in each other's arms.She had never mind-blocked me.

　　I don't know if this time we'll find a way back in each other's arms because the issue is so serious. Will she trust me again and believe in whatever I tell her?.

　　I don't know because I have already broken all promises that I made to her. I just hope that she'll find it in her heart to forgive me and offer me another chance.

　　"You deserve it, Sebastian! You deserve it. "I told myself. I leaned on the wall and slowly slid on the floor because my legs couldn't stand my weight.

　　All the good times that I shared with Hazel clouded my mind. The way we could make love in the shower, train together, watch the moon at night…

　　It made me feel guiltier because it's all my fault that things turned out this way. I wasn't strong enough to fight the mate bond.

　　"Damn Alexa! Why did you show up in our lives and ruin everything? "I cursed under my breath and ran my fingers through my wet hair, holding onto it tightly with my eyes shut.

　　Hazel and I were dancing on the dance floor when I suddenly smelled a sweet scent. She smelled of mint and apples.

　　Mints, my favorite  scent. Knight growled in my head as he fought for release.

　　"Hazel, hazel, hazel."I tried calling the name of my wife in my head. However, it didn't make sense anymore. Her name sounded blunt.

　　I felt Hazel touch my face as she said something to me. However, I didn't feel her touch like other days. Her touches were so cold against my skin, they didn't hold any warmth. They didn't make my insides tickle or turn on Knight.

　　"Hazel…"I called, looking into her eyes and saw fear flush in her eyes. She was aware of what was going on.

　　Hazel pulled me by my hand and I followed her lead. The scent got even more stronger with each passing second and I couldn't ignore the scent anymore.

　　I stopped in tracks, then pulled my hand from her tight grip and turned around, following the scent without a care in the world. I wanted to stop in my tracks and run back to my wife but it seemed like my legs had a mind of their own.

　　I thought I was strong enough to fight the bond but...it was so hard. That's because the bond between Alpha and his mate is so strong compared to other werewolves.

　　The Alpha is the strongest amongst all, making the bond strong. For the first time in my entire life, I hated being an Alpha.