Chapter 1 1- Why if I create you?
Why if I create a character?
- what? - she said looking me with her birght curious eyes.
- Why If I create a character.
- Where other people´s gaze doen´t look at us in a weir, morbid, obscene sense. Where they respect the love in all their forms. The way I see you. And I ignite your beauty in my mind.
- Why if I can create a world, truly for us, where I can love you? And no one else with dark magic, secrets, energies or selfish interesthings can change, even with just prudence and unkwokn feelings that rest into the uncear and the ignorance that does´t belong to the love. Why if.. I just create a world, where I can cry of happiness. Only of happiness because I love you.
- It´s ok. you don´t have to cry - She said.
- Because It´s not about the past never, the past doesn´t exist, Vicky, It´s only about this right moment. Where you and me can live here. And here in this world, there is not coincidences that end into mistakes and there is no interference betwen what is mean to be and what It isn´t.
- Why If I can create a world with my words, where I can touch you with just every single one of my words, and touch your feelings, touch the undiscovered and touch finally your lips.
- Can you live into the worlds? Where will be the time when you arrive to this world?
- Maybe for me, this is the real life. Where I can love you. Where I can reach you with my words and create art. And the other side, when I am in the unreal and complete hopeless because I can´t feel you, I am just sleeping, feeling the warm of my tears reminding me that sooner than late I will be there. witing or dancing just loving you.
- But you are so happy and complete into your world
- I can feel the nasty feeling of people around me, looking at me like a monkey because I am lesbian. But now, I am not lesbian, I am in love. And of course every time you break my feel of love saying you don´t like me or you don´t feel the same, you just contamine my love. And that´s the point I think in this other world, the skies are roses, red brilliant roses, and the night is eternal, except when we are apart and the sun rises to warm you skin and remind you how beautiful you are. And only there when we are appart I remember that my feeling of love can will never be nasty and my heart reminds pure into my chest, loving you.
- Every time I write I can imagine you are dancing, and only in that moment the nasty feeling just vanishs, I wish all straight people could be gay at least one moment in their lives. In that way they wills top looking with the need of making feel othes like if they worth nothing. Because they have no right to try no one like that. But in my planet, this planet where I am always kissing you when the sea comes to the sand, here there is always a soundtrack for every way I looking at you. And you are here only if you want, and you are in your human planet the rest of the time. This planet with roses in the skies is just so different that every planet you can imagine,, because belongs to my love for you. and As long as I love you will keep being just part of gaze like a figure of amazing beautifful gracefull swan swimming into your heart.
- And maybe here in this roses´s stars skies, I can´t feel what you feel in your human world. But here in my world, I can feel what you feel, and you can feel what I see on you, and there is everything sourrended by purity and tehre is no human´s gaze with judments and nasty eyes above us.
- But you need all that glow around you to shine. I can´t take that from you. So why If you bring me to your world, and I wear an human costume. That´s what Paola wanted to me on ehr birthday, she wanted to me like her friends. So maybe I can wear an human costume and be like your students, or your friends or polite people around you. Pretending you know I am not like Dana Fairbanks in love with Lara Pekins every time She goes to have lunch. So I will be pretend to be an human in your world, you with your glow and all that people around you, your fans, and me one of them, like if on privacy I didn´t have feelings of pasion and desire for you. So shine and glow, and have all that you want and make you happy. I can´t be so selfish with the woman I love. But I can love myself better and krep loving me like you would love me in My rtoses´s stars skies.
