7. Figuring it Out (Kaya & Cade POV)
Kaya POV
I signed to Cade “Why won’t shy pray?” I asked my mate, and he shrugged. “Have you checked out the garden like I told you?” He signed back to me, and I shook my head. I had been too busy, apparently being the goddess and having to fill in for her left little time to do anything else. Time worked weird here.
Cade was helping, he managed the garden. The place for those of our kind who had passed. Most of the time Cade was there, but sometimes he was in this white void with me. “You should Kaya, there is people we lost. That you lost and their spirt is right there to see.” He mind linked me. How was it possible I was here and still could not hear?
I shouted down our bond “I can’t, if I go visit or meet with them, I will never come to my senses and try to help our daughter.” I was snappy, the pressure was fierce. I had no idea what I was doing. Everything felt off. “Kaya, you should.” I snapped at him. “No, I have to help her.” I again yelled down the bond. “Kaya maybe the souls can give some insight.” I glared at my mate.
He had been in the garden and had yet to tell me anything important. “If they had something that would be any insight they would have told you, and you would have told me.” His face said I was right. I knew they had no information, nor would I try to get it. The garden is where souls went to rest, not aid in what was going on in the plane of the living. They were at peace and didn’t need to be pulled into the triviality of mortality.
“I saw” I cut of his mind link. “Don’t tell me anything, I love you, and I love a lot of people in that garden, but I can’t visit them. I can’t talk to them. I need to stay focus on one thing at a time and that is Sol.” His face hardened. My harsh reality crashed into his and he knew I was right and nodded. Cade’s arms wrapped me in a hug.
“You’re right, our daughter should be our priority. I am sorry I got sidetracked. It just has been so long since I was able to.” I nodded not needing him to continue down the link. He changed the subject and spoke down the bond “Alright, so we know the Goddess lent us her powers to the both of us, so what are you planning?”
He let go of me so I could sign “No idea, it would help if our daughter would say a prayer, we taught her that, but she won’t do it. Unlike the actual goddess we don’t have an all-seeing eye. Oh, and side note why does almost no one pray. I only heard one the whole time we have been here. It wasn’t even someone I knew.” Cade eyebrows came together as if he was thinking about what I signed.
“Can’t we go in and wipe out the traitors?” Cade signed and I frowned. “No we can’t. We still don’t even know anything about what we can do being in this position.” He nodded. We were so out of our depth here. “Maybe cause some kind of phenomena to get Sol to pray.” My brows came up. That actually sounded like it could work.
“What kind of Phenomenon?” I asked down our bond. “Arora Borlies or something, or earthquake, I don’t know?” This would have to be thought on. Neither of us knew what we were doing, and I wish we had more direction. “We just need to figure out how to direct the shared power the goddess gave us Kaya.” Cade said through our bond. “How are we to do that?”
He took my hands, and we just stood there. “Okay focus on the energy.” I heard Cade in my mind. I did as he said, and I could feel the power, but I didn’t know what to do with it though I could feel it. Cade had to be as clueless as I because he didn’t produce anything while we did this, just as I didn’t. I felt completely lost.
Cade POV
The Garden had been amazing. I could visit with my deceased parents. I told them about Sol, about Kaya. I was anxious for my mate to meet them, but she was determined not to mingle with the souls that were no longer alive. I understood it, she wanted to focus on our daughter.
I could see she was distressed; she had been since we arrived here. I knew I was being shitty not trying everything to help our child. I knew it was wrong to seek comfort in those I had lost, but I couldn’t help myself. I felt like a shit parent and when I looked at my mate, I felt more impressed upon that if nothing else I needed to be more focused.
I needed to stay away from the Garden. It was almost like I would get lost there and not want to return to help, it felt horrible. Maybe it was not a place I should visit at all, not until both Kaya and I died. My mate never went; she somehow had to know it would take away any semblance of focus.
Kaya and I were not gods or goddess. We didn’t have the ability to have focus on multiplanes of this place. We both needed to be focused together to do whatever we were supposed to be doing for the goddess. I decided I would pull my head out of my ass and focus on what my mate was trying to accomplish and help in any way I could.
I would have to fight the desire to go back into the garden and visit those who had already passed. People I loved, my mind felt torn suddenly. Fuck, I said to myself. Focus, I had to focus. I knew I shouldn’t have wandered away from Kaya to even find that place, because as much as I wanted to help Kaya my attention now would always be being pulled to the lost loved ones.
