Chapter 4 Four

CHASE

Ashley was doing what she does best. Sucking my dick like her life depended on it. She does it so effortlessly that I end up nutting a few times like a young, horny teenager.

But this morning, it's different. She's been sucking and pumping and I can't even feel it. It's like I'm numb or something. I'm faking grunts just so she doesn't feel bad but I don't feel it. Not a little bit.

My mind was somewhere else. Somewhere it shouldn't be. Someone else was on my mind. Someone I shouldn't be thinking about.

Ashley eventually stopped and dropped beside me. She was naked. We were both naked.

“What's wrong, Chase? You're not concentrating,” she ran her long fingers on my chest.

“I'm sorry. I guess I'm not in the mood.” I said, flashing her a smile and kissing her lips. She adjusted in my arms, still playing with my dick. She's one hell of an insatiable devil, and I love it. I really do. She brings so much fun to our sex life. It's just that today isn't our day.

“What's wrong?” She cooed, looking at me. “Do you have problems in your company? Are you having issues with the elders? You can tell me. You know I can take care of it for you.”

I smiled. That's one thing I love about her. She's always eager to defend me. Always ready to take on political matters.

Every day, I feel very happy and grateful that I made the decision to bring her back into my life. Every day, except today.

Not that I regret it. I just can't help the sudden thoughts. Thoughts of Karina.

She disappeared months ago and there has still not been any word about her. I sent half of my army to ransack the woods, the forbidden forest, and the nearby packs for her.

At first, it was because I was furious at her for almost killing Ashley and our unborn child.

But a few months have gone by and I've slowly realized that I'm not so mad at her anymore. Actually, I'm not mad at her at all. I just need them to find her and bring her back home.

She's such a fragile thing and she can't survive being out there in the woods for long. And I might not necessarily love her, but I grew fond of her at some point, and those feelings are the reasons I'm genuinely concerned for her right now and can't help but wish they find her and bring her back.

Today, my men are coming home. The council will be here shortly, and if my men come home without her, the council has insisted they're gonna publicly proclaim her dead.

That's why I feel weak and distracted this morning. The thought of Karina being dead and gone forever has paralyzed a side of my body, and I can't help it.

“Baby, come on now, please.” Ashley pouted, going back on her knees and ready to give me another round of blowjobs.

“Ashley, stop. Please…”

“No. I need you inside me. I feel really horny.”

She groaned, throwing her hair back and ready to get to work again.

She's always horny. The nurse said it had to do with the pregnancy but it's not just that. She's always been this way. Again, I like that side of her. But this morning, I'm fucking not in the mood. How can she not understand that and give me a little break?

“Fine. I'll just go ahead and ride you. I don't care.” She pouted, positioning herself and slowly guiding my dick inside her.

God, this woman!

She began riding me, slowly at first and then she went faster, losing her fucking mind. But then she won because now I'm in the mood. I held her waist, matching her pace and you need the victorious grin on her face.

We went on for minutes and then she finally orgasmed and fell beside me again. I didn't find my release. Once she was off me, I was back to feeling numb and more sullen than earlier.

“That was hot.” She giggled but I didn't stay to share in her excitement. I rolled off the bed and got into the bathroom to wash off the sweat and smell of sex.

But I spent more minutes, unavoidably thinking about Karina, and when I got out of the bathroom, Ashley had already dozed off.

I got dressed for the meeting, kissed her forehead, and left the room.

I met the council of elders at the door and after they greeted me, we walked into the throne room together. They took their seats while I took mine.

The wait for my men to return seemed long and unending. I was already way too nervous, tapping my foot impatiently.

Finally, the guard at the door came inside and bowed.

I sat up quickly, eager to hear what he had to say.

“Greetings, Alpha Chase. The men are back and they're requesting to have an audience with you.”

“Of course. Let them inside.” I said impatiently, waving him off.

He bowed and left. Seconds later, the door opened and my men marched inside. Not all of them. Just the general and his three assistants.

They went on their knees in the middle of the room with their heads bowed.

“Greetings, Alpha Chase.”

“Welcome home.” I was barely audible because of how anxious and nervous I was. “So tell me, how did it go?”

The general was the one who spoke. “We're sorry, Alpha Chase. But we couldn't find her. We searched everywhere.”

My heart dropped. “Are you sure about that? I don't think you searched enough.”

“We searched every day, Alpha Chase.”

“Well, that wasn't enough! Maybe you should have searched the islands or deep inside the forbidden woods. You should have invaded other Packs. Anything just to find her!”

“Please, stay calm, Alpha Chase.” The head of the council stood, standing in front of my general, shielding him from my wrath. “I think it's about time we accept the truth.”

“What bloody truth?”

“Luna Karina is gone forever. We're never seeing her again. She's dead.”

My heart stopped beating for a second.

“And that should be great news. Because now, our people can be reassured that the bad Luna met her karma. You'll live happily with your wonderful Luna and your soon-to-be-born heir. Our Pack will be happy and rich. We won't ever have a reason to miss the late Luna Karina.”

I watched him blankly, unsure of the reaction to give. Should I be excited that Karina is forever gone from my life?

Well, I should be. I mean, that's all I've ever wanted. Right? Yes. That's right. I should be thrilled, because now no one's ever coming between Ashley and me.

I should shove this guilt I feel into the basement of my heart and enjoy my life with my beautiful mate and our soon-to-be-born heir.

So yeah, good riddance, Karina. Good fucking riddance.

“You're right, Elder.” I finally smiled and he nodded with a smile too. “This news calls for celebration.”

“Yes, it does!”

Yes, it does. Yes, it does. But God, why do I feel empty?!