Love Me While I'm Dying

Love Me While I'm Dying

Lea · Ongoing · 209.6k Words

598
Hot
2.3k
Views
51
Added
Add to Shelf
Start Reading
Share:facebooktwitterpinterestwhatsappreddit

Introduction

"You're nothing but a replacement."

My husband said it with his eyes every time he looked through me to see her face. His mistress said it with that slow, satisfied smile. My own brother—the one I would have died for—proved it the night I saw him looking at her like she hung the moon.

I married a man who never once saw me.

I worked myself hollow for a family that used me like a tool and called it marriage. I gave up my career, my research, my dignity. I even gave up the right to be sick—because I have stage-four cancer and I haven't told a single soul.

I'm dying. And nobody knows.

But here's what they didn't count on: I'm not gone yet.

Before I go, I'm taking everything back.

Some women burn quietly until there's nothing left.

I'm done burning quietly.

Chapter 1

Elena

The moment William's weight came down on me, I cried out in pain.

I looked up and caught a flash of mockery in those ice-blue eyes.

"Since when did you get so sensitive?" His voice was cold.

Something squeezed tight in my chest.

I wanted to tell him this wasn't me throwing a fit — I was actually hurting. The test results had come back that morning. The report was sitting in the drawer right now. Breast cancer. Late stage.

"William, I'm dying."

I grabbed his arm and looked hard at that impossibly handsome face, searching for even a trace of concern.

He just curved his lips into a lazy smile.

"What's this about? Because I spent one birthday with Chloe?"

A scene?

Something inside me went cold, piece by piece.

There's a saying that's dead-on — to someone who doesn't love you, even if you hang yourself, he'll think you're just playing on a swing.

I closed my eyes and felt a bitter smile pull at my mouth.

"You skipped your own wife's medical appointment to spend the day with another woman. Tell me I don't have the right to say something."

I said it and I meant every word.

I rarely thought of myself as William's legal wife. I knew what he thought of our marriage — something to be ashamed of.

I used to love him. I put up with it.

But now I was dying.

If I had nothing left to lose, why couldn't I live the way I actually wanted — just once?

The man who'd been all over me a moment ago pulled away instantly. The air around him turned sharp and cold.

"Elena." He tossed the words over his shoulder without turning around. "You crossed a line."

Then he was gone.

I sat up. A wave of nausea hit me hard. I stumbled to the bathroom and threw up until there was nothing left.

I stared at the face in the mirror — hollow, wrecked, barely recognizable — and made myself a promise: Let it go. Let him go. Let yourself go.


I called a lawyer that night and had a divorce agreement drafted by morning.

The house, the cars, everything — I didn't want any of it. I just wanted out. Fast.

When I held that thin sheet of paper in my hands, I felt something loosen in my chest.

Somewhere along the way, this marriage — the one I'd once ached for, felt giddy over — had turned into a weight I was carrying.

I took the agreement and went to Holloway Group, but William's assistant Blake stopped me before I could even reach the office door.

"Miss Vance." Blake's tone was flat. "Legal is on a different floor, if I remember right."

William had never told anyone at the company about us. As far as the world was concerned, the CEO of Holloway Group was still single — and his rumored girlfriend was Chloe, the newly returned pharmaceutical PhD who'd just come back from studying abroad.

So Blake had never had much use for me. To him, I was just a junior associate in Legal who didn't know her place.

I was too tired to bother.

I held out the envelope — the one with the divorce agreement inside — and kept my face blank.

"Please give this to William."

I turned and walked away.

I didn't look back to see Blake's reaction. I just heard footsteps behind me, a pause, then a knock on the door.


The next day, Blake called me into a conference room.

"I'm sorry — what?"

I could barely process what I was hearing.

Blake repeated himself. "Dr. Chloe from the Pharmaceutical Research Institute is currently facing a defamation lawsuit. Mr. Fu wants you to take the case personally and win it for her."

My heartbeat started climbing.

Everyone in Legal knew about this case.

Chloe was the youngest, most accomplished female pharmaceutical PhD in the field. The moment she came back to the country, she'd picked up a stalker — some anonymous account that kept posting she was a homewrecker, that she'd broken up William's marriage.

Most people ignored it at first. Just noise.

But then the account did something unexpected. They posted a photo from a Holloway family dinner. Every face was blurred out, but sharp-eyed users noticed something — the woman sitting next to William wasn't Chloe.

That lit everything up. The hashtag #ChloeHomewrecker shot to the top of trending within hours.

Chloe fired back fast. She filed a defamation suit against the anonymous account.

I was shaking — literally shaking — with rage.

Whether Chloe was the other woman? Nobody knew that better than me — the actual wife.

All those nights I couldn't sleep. The explicit photos. The voice messages, breathy and unmistakable. Every single one of them from Chloe — pure, brilliant Chloe.

And my breast cancer? Nobody knew more about how I got it than she did.

Now William wanted me — his actual wife — to win a defamation case for his mistress?

Did he see me as a person at all?

"Miss Vance?" Blake's voice pulled me back. "Are you listening?"

I came back to myself and didn't hesitate.

"I'm not taking the case."

Blake's expression didn't change. He looked like he'd expected exactly that.

"Miss Vance, you're still an employee of Holloway Group. When you're given an assignment, you don't get to say no."

I laughed — a short, hollow sound — and reached up to take the lanyard off my neck. I dropped the ID badge on the table.

"Then I quit."

I didn't stop to grab anything from my desk. I walked out of Holloway Group with nothing but myself.


Ding.

I'd just stepped outside when my phone went off — a calendar reminder. Just a date. No description, no note.

But my face went white.

I moved fast, out to the curb, arm up for a cab.

"Riker's Island Correctional." My voice came out rushed. "Please hurry."The moment William's weight pressed down on me, I cried out in pain.

Last Chapters

You Might Like 😍

Pawn of the Starless God

Pawn of the Starless God

1.4k Views · Ongoing · Dee Fietz
I was supposed to die alone in an alley.

Instead, a god found me.

One moment, I was bleeding beneath the neon glow of the city, my life slipping through my fingers. The next, a glowing blue screen appeared before my eyes, offering me a choice that was never really a choice at all.

Accept the Summoner’s Mark. Or die.

Now I belong to the Death Game — a brutal cosmic system where ordinary people are turned into Players, thrown into impossible missions, and forced to survive horrors designed for the amusement of gods.

Every trial has rules.
Every monster has a weakness.
Every victory comes with a reward.

And every reward makes me less human.

My name is Nerissa Valehart, and I refuse to be anyone’s pawn.

But surviving the Game means trusting the one man everyone warns me to fear.

Veyren Ashford is ruthless, powerful, and dangerously beautiful — a veteran Player with blood on his hands and secrets in his soul. He says attachment will get me killed. He says love is a weakness the Game always punishes.

Yet when death comes for me, Veyren is the one standing between us.

In a world where gods gamble with mortal lives, monsters hunt from the shadows, and desire may be the deadliest weakness of all, I have only one goal:

Survive long enough to cross the board.

And make the Starless God regret choosing me..............
A pack of their own

A pack of their own

2.1m Views · Completed · dragonsbain22
Being the middle Child ignored and neglected, rejected by family and injured, She receives her wolf early and realizes she is a new type of hybrid but doesn't know how to control her power, she leaves her pack with her best friend and grandmother to go to her grandfather's clan to learn what she is and how to handle her power and then with her fated mate, her best friend and her fated mate little brother and grandmother start their own pack.
Reborn To Rule: I Will Seize The Throne!

Reborn To Rule: I Will Seize The Throne!

2.3k Views · Ongoing · Khira
"Aveline Ashkaar." Rhaedon's voice was low as his golden eyes held mine. "The moment you offered yourself to become my Luna, everything about you became mine. Your life, your obedience, your blood... including the abilities that flow through it."

He paused, his gaze never leaving mine.

"And I don't share what's mine."



I died on my son's death anniversary, betrayed by the man I'd devoted my entire life to, and the woman who stood by, smiling as I took my last breath… was my very own sister.

When I opened my eyes again, I was five years in the past—before the betrayal, before my death and before the beginning of it all.

This time, I refused to marry the man who destroyed me.

Instead, I walked straight into the arms of the only man the entire Empire feared—Crown Prince Alpha Rhaedon Ashkaar.

Rhaedon was everything Lucien wasn't.

Dangerous. Competent. Powerful.

And the perfect weapon for my revenge.

He wanted the throne. I wanted vengeance.

It should have been the perfect alliance, but revenge was never that simple.

With every step I took toward my revenge, another secret from my first life came to light. The deeper I dug, the more I realized I wasn't the only one playing this game.

And by the time I uncovered the truth...

Walking away from Rhaedon Ashkaar was no longer an option.
Omega Bound

Omega Bound

2.4m Views · Completed · Veronica White
Ayla Frost is a beautiful, rare omega. Kidnapped, tortured, and trafficked to rogue clans and corrupt alphas to do with as they pleased.  Kept alive in her cage, broken and abandoned by her wolf, she becomes mute and has given up on hope for a better life until one explosion changes everything. 

Thane Knight is the alpha of the Midnight Pack of the La Plata Mountain Range, the largest wolf shifter pack in the world. He is an alpha by day and hunts the shifter trafficking ring with his group of mercenaries by night. His hunt for vengeance leads to one raid that changes his life. 

Tropes:
Touch her and die/Slow burn romance/Fated Mates/Found family twist/Close circle betrayal/Cinnamon roll for only her/Traumatized heroine/Rare wolf/Hidden powers/Knotting/Nesting/Heats/Luna/Attempted assassination
Alpha Under Love Spell

Alpha Under Love Spell

1.8k Views · Ongoing · doughdessertdelight
“Please listen to me! I am not a thief. I don’t know how that necklace ended up in my purse. Please!” begged Maeve, crying.
Thorin pushed her on the bed and pinned her with his body. He growled near her face, “Liar!”

“No! No! I am not lying!”

“Then explain this!” Thorin whipped the screen of his phone near her eyes. Maeve looked at the screen, and her eyes widened with shock. It was a DNA report. It clearly said that Valeska was Maeve and Thorin’s daughter. “You have been lying to me for months now. Why did you hide that she is my daughter? Why did you start hating me? Did you never love me?”

“What should I have done? Let you kill my daughter!” snapped Maeve.

“What? Kill? What the hell are you talking about?” shouted Thorin.


After a passionate night with the Alpha Heir Thorin Blackridge, Maeve Arrendale, a human, found herself pregnant. She knew she had left her contact details for Thorin to find her, but he never came. Desperately, she went to tell him everything and ask him to take responsibility. But what came at her was humiliation and the devilish serial killer, Ozul.

She had no idea how she escaped her certain but she thanked every god and ran far away from Thorin and his world. She raised her child on her own. She herself had a difficult life and didn’t want her daughter to suffer. So she did everything in her power to give Valeska a good life.

Her life was turned upside down when Thorin came to her office as her boss. His fated mate, Vespera clinging to his arms. Now, Thorin hated her for vanishing from his life, and Maeve hated him for sending a serial killer to kill her.

Will Thorin accept his daughter? Will Maeve forgive him for attempting to kill her? If not Thorin, then who sent a serial killer to kill Maeve? An ancient magic, a prophecy, a powerful child is going to change everything in everyone’s life. Is everyone ready?
LOVING MY BILLIONAIRE STEPSON

LOVING MY BILLIONAIRE STEPSON

2k Views · Completed · Michael UDE
Before meeting Elliot Winter, Michelle’s life was a routine of beatings from her drunk dad to juggling part-time jobs. He was handsome, loaded, and had a smile that could melt ice.

There was also a twenty-year age gap between them, Michelle didn't care because their relationship was the only ray of sunshine in her rather bleak world. And when he popped the question she was more than happy to say yes. Michelle thought she had found her happily ever after, but she couldn't have been more wrong. With each year that passed Elliot became more of a stranger and less of the man she had fallen for, neglecting her and looking the other way when his mother treated her poorly, that was until the day their 5th anniversary rolled around, she caught him in bed with her sister.

Her love is replaced by hate, a swooning affection now burning rage. Well, two could play that game. That night, she dials her stepson's number with a single text that will change their lives forever.

‘I need you tonight’
The mafia princess return

The mafia princess return

920.1k Views · Completed · Tonje Unosen
Talia have been living with her mother, stepsister and Stepfather for years. One day she finally get away from them. Suddenly she learn she have more family out there and she have many people that actually love her, something she have never felt before! At least not as she can remember. She have to learn to trust others, get her new brothers to accept her for who she is!
Goddess Of The Underworld

Goddess Of The Underworld

912.5k Views · Completed · Sheridan Hartin
Left at a pack border with a name and a stubborn heartbeat, Envy grows into the sharpest kind of survivor, an orphaned warrior who knows how to hold a line and keep moving. Love isn’t in the plan…until four alpha wolves with playboy reputations and inconveniently soft hands decide the girl who won’t bow is the only queen they’ll ever take. Their mate. The one they have waited for. Xavier, Haiden, Levi, and Noah are gorgeous, lethal, and anything but perfect and Envy isn’t either. She’s changing. First into hell hound, Layah at her heels and fire in her veins. Then into what the realm has been waiting for, a Goddess of the Underworld, dragging her mates down to hell with her.

When the veil between the Divine, the Living, and the Dead begins to crack, Envy is thrust beneath with a job she can’t drop: keep the worlds from bleeding together, shepherd the lost, and make ordinary into armour, breakfasts, bedtime, battle plans. Peace lasts exactly one lullaby. This is the story of an orphan pup who became a goddess by choosing her family; of four imperfect alphas learning how to be better. Steamy, fierce, and full of heart, Goddess of the Underworld is a reverse harem, found-family paranormal romance where love writes the rules and keeps three realms from falling apart.
The Last Tribrid: Hunted & Hollow

The Last Tribrid: Hunted & Hollow

1.4k Views · Ongoing · Dancingpen
Hera is dead.
That’s what the blood in the woods says.
That’s what Astrid saw with her own eyes.
And that’s what should have ended it.
But it didn’t.
Because her death wasn’t the beginning of justice.
It was the beginning of the hunt.
As grief fractures their world, Astrid and her friends are forced to confront a terrifying truth—someone isn’t just killing.
They’re choosing.
Marking.
Watching.
And now, the circle is closing.
What started as a single investigation quickly unravels into something far more dangerous, pulling them into a web of ancient forces that have been waiting… watching… and are no longer willing to stay buried.
Enemies rise from places they never thought to look.
Allies become something else entirely.
And survival begins to demand impossible choices.
Because some lives can only be saved by sacrificing others.
As power awakens inside Astrid—wild, unstable, and willing to burn everything in its path—she’s pushed to the edge of what she can control… and what she’s willing to lose.
Even if it costs her everything.
Even if it costs them.
Because this time, they aren’t just being hunted.
They’ve already been marked.

(this is a continuation of 'the last tribrid')
The CEO's Unspoken Love

The CEO's Unspoken Love

366.6k Views · Completed · Lily Bronte
"You want my forgiveness?" he asked, my voice dropping to a dangerous timbre.

Before I could answer, he moved closer, suddenly looming over me, his face inches from mine. I felt my breath caught, my lips parting in surprise.

"Then this is the price for speaking ill of me to others," he murmured, nipping my lower lip before claiming my mouth in a real kiss. It began as punishment but quickly transformed into something else entirely as I responded, my initial rigidity melting into compliance, then active participation.

My breathing accelerated, small sounds escaping my throat as he explored my body. His touches were both punishment and pleasure, drawing shudders from me that I thought he felt reverberating through his own body.

My nightgown had ridden up, his hands discovering more of mine with each caress. We were both lost in sensation, rational thought receding with each passing second...

Three years ago, to fulfill the wish of his grandmother, I was forced to marry Derek Wells, the second son of the family that had adopted me for ten years. He didn't love me, but I had secretly loved him all along.

Now, the three-year contractual marriage is about to end, but I feel that some kind of sentiment has developed between Derek and me that neither of us is willing to admit. I'm not sure if my feelings are right, but I know that we can't resist each other physically...
Mated to Her Alpha Instructor

Mated to Her Alpha Instructor

148.4k Views · Completed · Marina Ellington
I'm Eileen, an outcast at the shifter academy, all because I don't have a wolf. My only saving grace is a knack for healing that got me into the Healer's Division. Then one night in the forbidden woods, I found a stranger on the brink of death. One touch, and something primal snapped between us. That night tied me to him in a way I can't undo.
Weeks later, our new Alpha combat instructor walks in. Regis. The guy from the woods. His eyes lock on mine, and I know he recognizes me. Then the secret I've been hiding hits me like a punch: I'm pregnant.
He has an offer that binds us tighter than ever. Protection… or a cage? Whispers turn ugly, darkness closes in. Why am I the one without a wolf? Is he my salvation… or will he drag me to ruin?
Falling For The Playboy Billionaire

Falling For The Playboy Billionaire

900 Views · Ongoing · Ava John
A collision of two worlds brought them together. Two single parents, with different personalities and distinct parenting styles.
Henderson Bain a playboy billionaire cares about nothing else aside from his daughter, Itzel who is a spoilt brat all thanks to her father.
Lena Cohen is hunted by her past but despite that, she is an amazing mother to Trent, a sweet well well-behaved boy but life wasn't rosy for them.
Henderson Bain is having a hard time searching for a nanny for Itzel until shows up though qualified, Henderson refuses to offer her the job because of their first encounter but seeing how Lena and Itzel get along, he decides to employ her.
Lena and Henderson were two worlds apart but one thing they never saw coming was them falling for each other.
Will they finally let go of their past, and give love a chance? Or try to suppress their feelings for each other? And what if their past comes knocking at their doors once again?