Bound by fate, marked by destiny

AILSA's POV

I come from a line of Betas, my father was the previous beta and he died some years back leaving me alone in this world. I was the only child without a male, so I took over my father's position, becoming the first female beta in the Silver Moon pack. 

I worked closely with the Alpha Lorcan who is also my fated mate. I've had a crush on Lorcan ever since we were kids and I prayed to the moon goddess to make us mates. I knew there was no other man for me than Lorcan and I loved him with all my heart. We grew up together and helped each other.

Since the takeover and my father's death, I have helped him to the best of my capabilities. Everyone in the pack adored me. My other friend Marie is like a sister to me. I told her everything, and she was all I had apart from Lorcan. I was sitting in my office going through some papers which I had left unattended to because I had been feeling sick but I was better now or so I thought. I felt this

sudden need to see Lorcan. I left the papers I was looking at and made my way to his office. I opened the door gently and Lorcan raised his head up.

"Ailsa" he called and I smiled at him. 

"Am I interrupting your work?"

"Not at all. Come here" he said opening his arms. I walked over to his desk and sat on his lap.

"How are you?" He was having dark circles under his eyes and I knew he had not gotten proper sleep because he came to bed when I was already asleep and left before I woke up.

"I'm tired," he said weakly. "I've been sorting something. There has been an invasion at the border and the villagers are panicking" he sighed heavily.

"Rogues?" I asked and he nodded.

"Don't you think it's best if we find out what they want rather than going to war?" I suggested and his body tensed. He shook his head disagreeing.

"Come on babe. Violence is not the solution to everything"

"It's risky. They are rogues. The only language they understand is violence. I can't strike a bargain with them. I'm going to find a way to destroy all of them"

"Babe," I said in a low tone. "You can't kill every time there is an invasion, there could be a reason for their invasion. That's why I'm saying you should do things

differently"

"That's what my father would have done. It's how we've treated rogues for generations. Are you saying I should accept them into the pack and let them do

whatever they want?"

"Babe, you aren't your father or your grandfather. You are Lorcan Inigo. The current alpha of the Silver moon pack and also my mate. I just want us to make the pack a better place" I could sense a change in his mood after I said those things and he made me stand up from his lap as he stood up.

"I'm sorry" I quickly apologized. I knew how bad Lorcan's temper was and I didn't want to make him angry. 

“If I said anything you didn't like. I was just trying to

help. I'll just keep my opinions to myself"

"It's fine Alisa. Just go" I felt a twist in my chest. I was right. He was angry and that's why he called me by my name. I quickly left the office so I wouldn't

aggravate his anger. I tried not to think about it but I just couldn't help it. It was etched in my mind. I

was afraid.

'Don't think about it' my wolf tried to make me calm but it was not working. 

The sound of laughter made me realize that I had wandered into the park. I hadn't been concentrating as I left Lorcan's office. I was about to turn back and leave but then a child spotted me and called out to me and I had to play with them. It helped me take my mind off Lorcan for some time before I realized that it was time to go.

I couldn't go back to the pack house because I knew I wouldn't concentrate on my work so I turned in the direction of Marie's workplace. Luckily, she was on break and I met her outside.

"You look gloomy," she said immediately she saw me. We proceeded to sit in our spot whenever I came to visit her.

"Spit it out already" I let out a heavy sigh.

"There's nothing wrong," I said without looking her in the eyes but she wasn't having it.

"You are avoiding my eyes so I know there's something definitely wrong. Is there trouble in Paradise?" I didn't say anything and that must have given her the answer.

"What did Lorcan do this time. Do I need to fight someone?"

"No. No Marie. There's no need to fight anyone. He didn't do anything"

"So why do you look sullen? Did you have another lovers' quarrel? I think it's time I have a word with Lorcan"

"He isn't at fault. I'm the one at fault. I made him upset" she looked at me intently.

"Are you always going to take the blame whenever you both quarrel? You always do everything for him. Sometimes you need to let things be. It's like you are

desperate for his attention"

“How does loving him make me desperate?”

"Have you ever asked yourself if the feelings are one-sided?" I nodded. I was sure about Lorcan's feelings for me.

"I know he feels the same way. Just because you don't like him doesn't mean he is bad. I don't know why you don't like or trust him. If you get to know him, you'll see he's the best"

"I don't hate him, Ally. I just feel you place him so high that you don't even rate yourself"

"That's not true"

I loved Lorcan and nothing is going to change it. I don't care how it makes me look to other people. He is my mate and we will be together forever. In a fortnight, I was going to officially be the Luna of this pack.

"I want you and Lorcan to get along," I said taking her hands in mine.

"I'm not promising you anything, Ally. I need to get back to work now" she said and we kissed each other goodbye. I went back into the pack house.

That night, I prepared for bed but there was no sign of Lorcan. Perhaps he still felt upset about what happened earlier. Hating the thought of going to bed while he was still angry with me, I decided to find him in his office. 

The door was firmly shut but I opened it as I always do. But this time wasn’t like the other times. My feet halt in the center of his office as I take in the sight of a woman wrapped tightly in his arms.