The Pain of Loving You
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Introduction
Aliyah has been blessed to have someone who is willing to fight for her despite rejections. Oliver Webb, a well-known businessman who owns a large business empire, courted her. They became lovers, and they got married. But still, life is full of unwanted things to give.
After three months of being in that marriage, Oliver met an accident and was declared dead on the spot. Aliyah's world almost collapsed, especially when she lost more than that. She lost her husband and her child.
It's been so hard for her to move on, but she didn't have a choice until she woke up one morning beside a stranger.
She's trying to forget about the guy, but maybe fate will lead her back to him so that they might even become business partners. Will it lead them to a romantic ending, or will it be a way for Aliyah to discover the real reason for her husband's death?
How will she accept the truth behind every lies that are no in her way?
Chapter 1
Aliyah's POV.
It was 3 years ago.
Almost 6:00 in the evening and I need to get up so I can prepare. I want this night to be memorable for me and Oliver
I've waited for this to come and now that it's just at hand,I won't let it pass. I will make him believe that I am the most deserving girl he could ever have.
As planned, I am wearing the floral dress he has given me. It really fits into my body and I love seeing it in the mirror. I turned around the mirror in front of me to see my reflection as a whole.
I smiled to myself.. I stared with my reflection and turn around again for the second time.
I went out of my room and walk slowly to Bella's room.
I knocked on Bella's room so we could leave.
"Hey Bella, what took you so long? You've been having hard time with your preparation. We need to leave, we can't be late." I said as I opened the door and leant my head on it.
"I'm ready," she said with a smile on her lips as she turned around in front of me. She looked amazing that night, and I couldn't help but admire her simple beauty. She don't usually put too much efforts in her beauty regime.. but when she had enough time,I'm sure she'll be more amazing than anyone.
"As I could see, you look gorgeous, stunning and eyes captivating lady, so... we need to leave now. My boyfriend is waiting for me, you know him.. sonetime he wanted to be always on time." I said, taking her hand and leading her out of her room.
We arrived at the venue just in time. There are so many guests. Businessmen, businesswomen, and others are from elite families. I know I shouldn't be in that party.
Oliver's mom might just embarass me but that doesn't matyer for now. All that matters is that I am the main attraction of tonights event.
"You're flying so high again Aliyah.. just relax and enjoy the night." It was Bella who whispered at me. She might noticed that I'm a bit nervous and I admit that.
"I'm fine.. but you know I can't help not to feel a bit nervous coz as you can see,we don't belong in here." I whispered back.
"Shhh.. shut up. Don't show that you're nervous.. that is not good in business." She smiled at me.
We just stop with our conversation when we saw Oliver getting near us.
"Hey babe, I missed you. I'm sorry if I never got the chance to pick you up..." Oliver is now trying to explain himself, but I cut his words off. It is his day. He should not be thinking of anything else but just enjoying it.
"Babe, stop it. It's your birthday and you should enjoy the night. Enough for the explanations okay? I' here now. I'm safe. Happy birthday.. I love you. " I smiled as I kissed him.
Being an heir's girlfriend is not as easy as what others may think. Deep inside me, I'm a bit insecure. Why? Because I know he can have a better girlfriend than me. My eyes have been nailed on me every time we are together. People may not say it, but I can see in their eyes those questions that keep running in my mind. "Why me?" But Oliver always told me that it is the love that counts, not the money or any other material possessions. He always say that I am his wealth and no one can ever chabged that.
"Come on, stay at our table. Mom and dad are there waiting for us.. I know you will just refuse.. but come on let's join them. " He took my hand and I refused because I knew that his mom was not really in favor of me.
She was just trying her best to be a supportive mom in front of other people, but deep inside her? She doesn't want me around.
"Babe, I can stay here. I'm okay here and Bella is with me, so you don't have to worry. Don't ruin your mom's mood. Remember? She doesn't want me around, I don't want her to think that I am doing this intentional." I said as I stop walking. I hold his hands and try to make him understand, though inside me it hurts and it is very degrading.
"Babe, please, even just for now. I want us to be complete. I want you by my side. Please babe, mom is kust like that but I know she do understand." he kissed my hands. How can I resist his charms?
Those eyes were so expressive. His lips were so kissable. I really can't resist, so I just walk with him, holding hands.
As we got to their table, his mom just looked at me with her eyebrows raised and seemed to have no plan to lower them down. Oliver pulled the chair out and he took me to sit beside him.
I can't even look at his mom. I don't know how to act like a normal person. I have been nailed where I was sityed like a robot.
After a few seconds, Oliver stood beside me as the MC handed the microphone to him. He extended his warm welcome to all the visitors and, in particular, he thanked them for being there.
The part of the party that I didn't expect was when David mentioned my name. I wans't expecting him to say things that are not meant to be said.
"I would like everyone to please lend me their eyes and ears. I'd like you all to meet my girlfriend, Aliyah Smith. I am blessed to have her in my life. She brought colors to my world that I thought I wouldn't have. And tonight I want a double celebration. As I celebrate my birthday, I want to ask her something." He gave the microphone to his assistant as he kneeled in front of me, holding a small box in his hand, and he looked at me seriously.
"Babe I'm sorry if I made it this way, I know you didn't expect it to be this early. We have plans and I still want yo do them with you, but tonight I will ask you. Will you be with me for the rest of my life? Will you be someone who will stay with through thick and thin?? Will you be Mrs. Oliver Webb? " He asked.
I don't know what to say, my teats fell from my eyes as Ibwas looking at him.. but honestly, I am so proud of myself. Though I can see his mom looking at me like she wanted me to say no, I'm still happy.
I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks as I was trying to wipe them dry. I cleared my throat before speaking.
"Yes babe, I will. I will always love you and no one else but you. I will stay no matter how hard life would bring us." I said as my tears were now falling. He hugged me tight and he kissed me torridly in front of so many people. Only then do I feel secure. All my insecurities have been wiped away.
"Yes!!!! All of you who are here are all invited to our wedding. I will announce it soonest so my future bride will have no chance to change her mind. " He said. That was a joke, of course. Everybody just laughed. I could see his mom by my peripheral vision that she was just smiling for the sake of the crowd reaction.
"Thank you, babe. I didn't expect this, but I'm so happy. I can't explain how I should feel, but deep inside me I'm celebrating. I can't promise you any material things but I can offer you myself as a whole." I held his face the way I always do. He kissed me instead of saying a word.
"That is the reason why I didn't show up for a day, babe. I need to spend time finding this ring especially for you. I want this night for us to be remembered. You know how much I love you and I am willing to do everything for you." He led me to the chair so we could take our seat.
"I promised to be a good wife that you can always trust. I will stay by your side no matter what life brings us. Through ups and downs. I will not let problems to ruin what we have now. Thank you for everything. Thank you for loving me as I am."
"Richer and poorer, but don't think about being poor. I won't let that happen. I will make your life easy and comfortable. I will not let your tears fall because of pain. Tears of joy, maybe. I will not give you heavy feelings. I promised." He kissed me. I find him a conservative person, but when it comes to showing his feelings for me, he wanted everybody to know.
That is the most amazing thing that I always love about him. It might not be as well but I love him the way he show how much he valued me.
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