Born As Luna Queen

I smiled flatly when I welcomed the arrival of my uncle, my aunt and my cousin, Leonidas. It's been five years since I last saw him. Leo, who is four years older, used to be very close to me. He is an only child, therefore he has no siblings.

When he was little, Leo lived in the same town where my family lived. That's why he often plays with me and my older brother, Samuel. But then, Leo and his parents moved to London and lived there for quite a long time.

"Sera, darling! How are you? Sorry that we can only visit you now! Your uncle is very busy, that's why we had to postpone coming!" Said Aunt Margareth, Leo's mother.

"You guys have no intention of coming. Maybe when I die, then you will come to my funeral!" Grandma said curtly.

"Mom, don't talk like that! John has been very busy lately and Leo is also busy preparing for his graduation! We're really sorry!"

"No need to apologize to me! But apologize to Sera!"

"Okay, Mom! I understand, I will apologize to my beautiful niece! Sera, forgive me, okay? Tell me, what do you want? I will definitely buy anything for you!"

"It's okay, Auntie! I'm fine, there's nothing to think about!" I said while trying to keep smiling.

"Hi, Sera? How are you? You still remember me, right?" Leo said, I don't know how he could think that I forgot about him. Come on, we haven't seen each other for five years and I'm not a senile old lady.

"Of course I haven't forgotten you, it's nice to see you again, Leo." I said while smiling flatly. I tried to make small talk so that after this I could return to my bedroom.

"The last time we met was when our grandfather died, right? It was five years ago. Have you graduated from high school?" He asked. It seemed he still wanted to continue this conversation.

"Yes, I've graduated. How about you?"

"I will graduate from college this year. I already know about you, I'm glad you survived that incident, Sera!" He said it calmly without burden. Even though I lost all my family members because of that incident. Hearing his words, I immediately showed an angry reaction.

I don't know why other people can easily discuss such a big issue without considering my feelings as a victim. Maybe they were being sympathetic, but now didn't seem like the right time to talk about it.

"Yes, thank you. Ok, I'm going to my room first. Good night?" I have expressed my desire to immediately leave this place and return to my room.

"Sera, do you want to sleep now? Me, your uncle and Leo just arrived? Let's have dinner together first, okay?" Said Aunt Margareth. Aunt immediately approached me with a face full of enthusiasm, as if there was no sadness visible in her eyes.

His older brother, sister-in-law and two nephews had died in a cruise ship accident, while I, the only survivor, was still deeply grieving over the death of my family. Meanwhile they gathered here, eating dinner and talking as if nothing had happened.

I felt very sad, the longer I felt my energy was draining. I don't know how long I will live with my grandmother in this house and will I never be able to return to the house I used to live with my family? I don't know why my enthusiasm for life seems to have disappeared even though I already know that Nathan, the man who saved me in that terrible incident, is also safe.

"Sorry, Auntie! I'm really tired, I want to rest. Good night?" I said as I walked away towards my room.

Seeing my gloomy attitude, they probably felt very concerned. They tried to comfort me so that my trauma and sadness could heal a little. However, it seems that their efforts have not yet borne fruit considering that the incident only occurred one month ago.

"Leo, you see how things are, right?" Grandma asked. She showed Leo how bad my condition was after surviving the sinking cruise ship tragedy.

"Yes, she looks pale and her eyes are empty. I think Sera should be treated by a professional psychologist, Grandma!" Leo said. He wasn't sure he could help me heal my trauma. He felt that his abilities and experience were still not enough.

"I took her to a psychologist after she was released from the hospital. But she always refused and even rebelled. She said that her body felt very tired, that's why she wanted to rest. Leo, if it was with you, maybe she could open up a little. Help her! "

"Okay, I understand! Did she ever tell you about her worries?"

"Her worry? What do you mean?"

"Did she ever tell you anything related to the tragedy?"

"She was talking about her traveling companion named Nathan!"

"Nathan?"

"Yes, she said that it was the young man who saved her when she was drowning and took her in a lifeboat. It seems that Sera and that young man have a special relationship!"

"Is that so? Is that why she became gloomy?"

"Leo, can you help her? When you were little, you two were very close, weren't you? Can you help Sera?" This time, Grandma begged while holding back tears

"Okay, grandma. I'll try it!"

I stood still, looking at Leo's face who was smiling gently at me. I don't know what he was really thinking and why he kept watching me all this time.

"You want to go?" He asked. It seemed he couldn't take his eyes off me for a moment, who only responded with a cold expression.

"I just want to go to the backyard. Why do you keep looking at me?"

"I just want to chat with you, but you seem to keep avoiding me!"

"Sorry, Leo! I just want to be alone. You can chat with grandma!"

"But I want to talk to you, can you give me some time?" Leo started his play to melt my heart. He wanted me to give him a chance to get closer to him.

I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. It feels quite difficult to talk to other people at the moment. But I also don't have the heart for him.

"Okay, Leo! I thought we could talk for a bit!" I said.

Leo looked very happy with my answer. The two of us walked to the backyard where hydrangeas bloomed around the lake. I feel awkward because I have to be alone with him here after five years of us not talking to each other and now, I don't know what we should talk about.

"Sera!"

"Yes?"

"You remember we used to play here with grandpa You remember that, right?" Leo asked. He began with memories of our long-dead grandfather.

"Yeah, I remember!"

"You used to follow me to swim in that lake in the summer. When grandpa found out, he immediately scolded me and thought I was the one who invited you to swim in that lake!" Leo laughed a little, remembering the happy memories of when we still lived with grandfather in this house.

Although it seems that the memories are beautiful for him, they are not for me. All memories of the past will only bring those regrets back to life. I hate having to remember it again, not because he hated my life, but because I hated myself in the past.