My Heart

Hazan, will you marry me? ” I heard Sinan ask me as he got down on his knees and stared at me.

We've been in a relationship for almost 6 months but marriage was still a long way from what I had in mind. I didn't know what to say or do when I stared at him. I looked at the beautiful ring he was holding, and presenting to me, but I felt no excitement or happiness with all that was happening. Instead, I felt like I wanted to run and run away.

' ' I apologize Sinan , and I 'm not ready for marriage yet . I mean , we Ntuaad since 6 months only , and from early very thinking in marriage . "

I saw the pain in his eyes and felt guilty. I love him but I'm not ready for a commitment right now. I'm 22 years old and haven't had the chance yet to do all the things I was planning to do. I wanted to travel around the world and explore it. Well, I've already traveled almost half of the countries on Earth, but that wasn't enough for me.

'' I thought you loved me? ' He asked with a sullen and angry expression. I looked down, biting my lower lip.

" I love you Sinan and but this is not the time the right after . I hope to understand me and waiting for me . '' I grabbed my hand and he stands for dragging me to embrace him.

' Okay . If it was this what Tredenh . You know I will always wait for you, ” he said, hugging me.

'' Hazaz, why not receptive offer Sinan on any case? I think you don't like him .” My little sister Egeh spoke.

We were in my room and as usual, she came to bother me and bother me again. As my youngest sister, she used to be sticking to my side or our older brother Gökhan who has been living in the USA since he was in college and is running our family business. When our father passed away, all the responsibilities became on him.

On the other hand, I was still enjoying my life doing nothing but going out with my friends, boating and traveling a lot. My older brother, Gökhan, used to convince me to go to the US and help him run our business after I finished university. But I wasn't interested, but I told him I would start my training when I was 22, and it happened two weeks ago.

Now, I have to go there and start my training. I didn't want it but I knew that sooner or later I would start helping too whether I liked it or not. Sitting at a desk and doing nothing but paperwork would be too boring for me. I am a person who loves the outdoors and freedom and I really hate staying in one place for too long. I get bored quickly.

' ' What , who are you talking about? Did I did to Awaadh if you do not like him '' I said , as if it is a reality and self - evident while staring at her. She shrugged her shoulders, her features becoming more serious.

" Do not I insult and I happy because you are not receptive display " I sat where I am to see her Ptvaji.

' ' Why do you say that? '' I asked her. She sighed, but sat next to me.

' ' Frankly , I do not like him that he is not the person the right to you . Sorry, ” she said frankly as her eyes fell on her bound hands.

It was my turn to sigh. I was a little surprised because this was the first time I heard her say this about someone I've dated. Well, I didn't really have much. Sinan is the third. As for the other two people, he didn't stay with them even for 3 months.

'' I know . You just greet Bsmh when Trinh you did not talk with him even . You're just like Gökhan .” She grinned and lay down. I rolled my eyes I already knew what she was thinking, that I didn't know how to pick the right guy.

" You know what , let 's come with me . Let 's visit Sinan and ask him to spend this day with Kltana . I want you to know him is the best and I will prove to you that man nice '' I told her, making her face turn into signs of disgust

" Well Well , stop for begging " smiled internally when I heard her answer. I got out of my room and went to her room to get ready.

After about two hours, we finished preparing ourselves. I took my car key and bag and left my room. Then I saw Ege come out of her room too, and then we went out of the house.

" Do not I wait until I get a car especially my " I heard the Aegean while she was Muttering staring at her Searta.aptsmt. She still uses the family car and still has a driver to drive for. Our father made a decision that we should get a car when we turned 21 and she was still 20.

“ Well , you know the rules. ” I annoyed her, so she rolled her eyes from my face. I pinched her gently on the cheek, making her moan. I hated it when I was treating her like a kid. Well, she still looks like a baby girl. She is my younger sister after all.

We went to Sinan's house. We tried to call him before reaching his apartment, but he didn't answer at all which made me angry.

' ' I think it is the best for us to go to somewhere else . May be your lover busy with something that '' I heard Aegean says inconvenience, I shook my head no.

'' No . We almost got there . I will check it out . May have happened something bad to him '' I assumed that her eyes made her Roulade

Then after 3 minutes of driving, we got to his house. I parked my car in front of the building. Then we went into the elevator. While we were on our way to his apartment, I didn't know why but suddenly felt uncomfortable. Egeh was busy with her phone.

When we were right in front of Sinan's apartment, I knocked but no one was answering. I called his number but the same thing. He wasn't answering either. I tried to turn the door knob and it was open, not locked.

My mind was debating whether to enter his apartment or not, but then I became anxious. What if something happened to him that's why he doesn't answer? So I proceeded and entered.

'' Hey ! This is the encroachment on the property of others or invasion of privacy? So let's go !” I heard Ege speak but I asked her to shut up.

I looked for Sinan in the living room and kitchen, but he wasn't there. Then I saw his room door slightly open. I quickly went there thinking maybe he was asleep.

In fact, he was sleeping with another woman beside him. They were clearly naked under the sheets. Everything turned red in front of me all of a sudden I went to the kitchen and filled a jug of cold water and then went back to his room and poured it out