The Wrong Kind Of Love

I can remember the day that I realized that I loved him more than just a friend. More so even then just a crush. It was a Saturday. A dreary and rainy day really. I had spent all my Saturdays at their house since ever.It's the kind of thing that happens when your parents are best friends. Fridays the boys stay with us and Saturdays I stay with them.

On this particular Saturday though I didn't want to stay. I wanted to go to a party with one of my friends but my parents said no. So, I am skulking.

"I can ask my parents if we can go." Greyson offers beside me.

"Yeah, they would call my parents and ask first. Thanks though." I sigh.

"I'm sure next year they'll let you go. You know how they are Cassie."

"Next year I'll be 14 and they said when I'm 16." I huff rolling my eyes and making him laugh.

"Well, I am 14 and there ain't nothing special about it I promise."

"I bet Kai could go he's 15." I scoff angrily.

"He's grounded actually. He's failing his classes." Greyson says.

I stand and enter his house walking up the steps to his room. I flop on the bed and sigh.

"Who pissed her off?" Kai asks Greyson.

"The world." He laughs making me throw a pillow at him.

"The world is unfair." I pout.

"Are you going to sulk all night or do you want to have fun?" Greyson prods.

"The latter."

"Too bad, fun it is."

"I'm up for fun since I can't leave the house." Kai says sitting on the floor.

"What kind of fun?" I ask sitting up and crossing my arms over my chest.

Greyson holds up a finger and disappears down the hall. Kai stands up and sits next to me on the bed.

"Why are you so mad anyways Cass?" He asks looking at me.

"I wanted to go to a party with Margine but my parents said no."

"Those parties aren't all that great for girls like you."

"What is that supposed to mean? Girls like me." I grit out.

"All they do at those parties are make out and drink. Have you ever even been kissed?" He asks. I feel my face flush at his words. No I haven't but that isn't the point.

"That wasn't the point, Kai." I growl looking away.

I hear him chuckle softly and I look back at him to yell but he presses his lips to mine quickly. It's short.

He pulls away and smiles gently.

"Now you have been kissed. You're not missing much. Trust me." Then he leaves me alone on the bed.

I have had a crush on Kai for a long time. He's smart and funny and hot. And he just kissed me. My first kiss.

I touch my lips and grin like a fool.

A few minutes later Greyson reappears with board games.

"You look better. What happened?" He asks sitting on the floor and opening Monopoly.

"I don't know." I answer honestly. Kai stays in his room until dinner and even then he doesn't talk to me.

When I walk upstairs he stops me though.

"About earlier. The kiss. I'm sorry. If it was weird. You deserve a proper first kiss and that was wrong to rob you of it."

I try to think of something to say but I can't. He regrets kissing me? That hurts a lot more than I would ever admit.

"You don't have to be embarrassed Kai. I don't want your pity kisses anyhow." I say walking into Greyson's room and leaving him alone in the hallway.

I was mad. At myself. At Kai. At my parents. At the world.

Greyson fell right to sleep and I went to get a drink. The house was quiet but it was my second home. I pour a glass of water and take a sip when I hear foot steps.

"What are you doing up?" Kai asks.

"Drink." I say putting my glass in the sink and walking past him. he grabs my elbow making me stop.

"I didn't mean to hurt your feelings earlier. I wanted to kiss you. I couldn't help myself."

"Cool." I say not looking at him.

"Cass. Look at me." He pleads. I sigh and turn, crossing my arms.

He leans in at the same time I hear the front door open. I step back and run to the stairs as Killian walks in. He looks back and fourth between the two of us with a furrowed brow.

I don't stick around. I go back to Greyson's room and climb into bed. Closing my eyes and trying to calm my racing heart.

Killian is 18 and graduated. He's the oldest and I don't think that he likes me very much.

I hear the door open and my breath pauses.

"It's just me." Kai whispers kneeling down so he can see my face. "Killian was drunk so he won't even remember what he saw."

"Nothing happened." I whisper. He smiles cockily and I roll my eyes.

"I like you Cass. A lot. But, it has to be a secret until your birthday at least." He leans in and presses his lips to mine and I swear fireworks erupt inside of me. This kiss is longer. More.

He pulls away and stands up. Leaving me alone to wonder if I dreamt that.

I fall asleep smiling. I think of all the times Kai has stuck up for me. The hugs he gave me when I needed them. I realize I may even love him a little bit. And it scares me a lot.

I end up dreaming about him, and it's weird. It freaks me out because I never have dreamt of him before now.